Log in

No account? Create an account
Wondrous Beauty
Living From Within
17th-May-2006 12:37 am
Water angel
I want to overdose on my sleeping pills so badly. My doctor put me on 5mg, and I eventually increased it to 20mg. Now I want to go to 30mg. I've just been self-destructive and suicidal lately. Things would be better if I would sleep all day or be in a coma. My life really sucks right now. I can't even afford a psychologist, and I really want and need one. I'm out of school and I will soon be without health insurance. My parents don't even want me in the house and I'm not stable enough to get a job. I will try to get a job though. I will try.
(Deleted comment)
18th-May-2006 01:53 pm (UTC)
I'm pretty skeptical about going to a free therapist. I had to pay a small fee (well, $8-$16) for my school therapist and that tramp isn't even qualified to help someone like me, neither was my damn psychiatrist!!! I'll start off going to one though, they could at least help me find the person I need. I could call 1-800-SUICIDE or 1-800-DONTCUT. I called the suicide one once. I think that I can find someone who could help me for free...I'll ask my family doctor.
Thanks hun! ^-^
(Deleted comment)
19th-May-2006 03:31 am (UTC)
Awww...thanks a lot!!! You're so sweet and cool! xoxo
18th-May-2006 04:04 am (UTC)
Please don't OD on your pills.

Sometimes the state you are living in can/will pay for you to get the help you need. The state I am in took care of my medical bills, and still do. While I was inpatient once, my mom called the hospital I was in and told them that I was not allowed to go back to her place. I had just moved back to her place after my college graduation 2 months before I got kicked out.
19th-May-2006 07:52 pm (UTC) - I believe in you.
If you find a job, I know you'll be strong enough to handle it because you want and need it for yourself.

Take finding one one step at a time. Like making a list of possible things you can do, would be interesting in doing. And then start brainstorming what kind of atributes you have that would benefit you for that job, something you could talk about doing a job interview.

Just keep it simple. Set your own pace, and try to come up with some goals for yourself so you can keep motivated.

Keep us updated :)
This page was loaded Apr 26th 2019, 3:46 am GMT.