I've been feeling better since my last post, but I'm still down. I'm beginning to feel indifferent and ineffective. I'm really not enjoying my life right now. I give up.
I'm having nightmares and bad dreams again. During my course of treatment with EMDR
I was regularly having nightmares and bad dreams, but I haven't had an EMDR
session within the past six months. The dreams stopped before I stopped going to therapy. The dreams started again within the last week. Also, I haven't been sleeping well for the past few months or so.
Work sucks. My boss told me to do something impossible yesterday, so I clocked out and went home. I don't have the time nor the energy to deal with any more bullshit. He's gonna ask what happened and I'll tell him, but the issue won't get fixed. It's difficult to be in a situation where management doesn't want to fix serious issues. My last boss was fired, and there's not a doubt in my mind that this fucker will get fired as well. I'm just going with the flow until I find a better place to go. There's nothing else for me to do in these situations other than to leave. I will talk to my Human Resources Manager when I get the chance, but I don't expect anything to improve by doing that. My HR manager is wonderful and seems to do his job really well, but I just want to vent and leave the situation. I just don't care anymore. I'm tired and through with this. Maybe I could change my work-schedule so I would have to deal with my boss less often.