Stephanie (wondrous2) wrote,

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Writer's Block: Back to the future

If you were 12 and could see yourself now, do you think you'd be happy or disappointed, and why?

Honestly, my 12-year-old self would be highly disappointed and become depressed.

I was 12 about 10 years ago, and I expected myself to at least have a 4-year degree, to be living on my own, and to be married and thinking about children by now. I'm so far from that - it's not even funny. I have absolutely no idea when I'm going back to school, 'cause I don't feel secure enough to go back, not to mention that I have absolutely no money for tuition or any school expenses; I couldn't live on my own with the little pay I earn and all my huge medical expenses; and as far as guys are concerned, I'm a nun. No goodies for anyone, 'cause I just don't wanna be bothered. Hell, this damn Zoloft (that I'm weaning myself off of) has killed my ability to enjoy sex or masturbation, so I couldn't really care less right now.

Ten years from now, though, I believe that I'll be much better off. :-) If not, then this is some bullshit... lol
Tags: life, plans, reflection, writer's block
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