Stephanie (wondrous2) wrote,

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Rest is Good!

Two more days of work, and then I'll have two days off! Yippee! Yesterday I was off, and before that I worked six days straight. On the fifth day I worked from 5am to 6pm... I wanted to die! I mean, I've done that before (I've done a few 5am-8:30pms at the other store), but I don't ever want to do that again! I was so overwhelmed! No one was scheduled to help me at 7am, so I had to take care of that job and mine. Also, a customer was upset because her cake order wasn't done, so I had to stop baking and decorate her cake (actually, it was a cupcake-pull-apart, which looks like a cake but with a bunch of cupcakes iced together). I wanted to walk out, but I took a deep breath and had one of my closers help me with my baking process breakout thingy. On the sixth day, I told my ETL (one of my bosses) what happened and he felt bad. That's probably why he told me to leave at 12pm that day instead of the usual 1:30pm. I'm just glad that today went muuuch better. :-) Basically I got all my work done without any interruptions.

I need to learn how to manage my suicidal/depressive feelings better. Lately when I feel down, it's not for long, so I can bounce back rather quickly, but still... who the hell wants to continuously go from feeling confident and in charge to feeling shitty and ready to die? It's annoying. Sometimes the reasons why I feel so down aren't that serious. It's like one thing goes wrong, and I lose my sense of security and confidence to feel good. Eh, I gotta work on that. Damn PTSD...
Tags: depression, good mood, job, ptsd
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