You know what? I feel like life's not being fair to me right now. All I want to do is live a happy life, and am I happy? No, I am not. No, I'm not depressed, but I am feeling tired and frustrated. You know something I just realized recently? All while I'm trying to attract positive things in my life, I'm attracting some horrible shit, too. In this case, it seems like the bad out-weighs the good, and that freakin' sucks. What in freakin' hell am I supposed to do? Seriously. This is crazy. I can't just sit here and wait for something good to happen, but when I get up and try to do something, it's either ineffective or hinders me in some way. Pardon my French, but I'm gettin' tired of this bullshit. I'm gettin' tired of writing about this bullshit, too.
I don't know what I'm gonna do. What the fuck does going with the flow mean? I'm tryin' to be all zen and shit, but it isn't quite working the way I planned. Whatever, I'm not in a good mood right now. And my damn throat still hurts from days ago, but now I'm coughing and damn near choking up my freakin' lungs. This freakin' sucks. :-( I'm gonna go to Paint N Party later this week and paint a damn fairy. Maybe I'll feel better after painting some plaster crafts.
This is booty. I need drugs. Medication, I mean.
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- Music:Silence - Delerium feat. Sarah McLachlan