Inevitably, I need treatment, but I'm in a position where I can't get it right now. I'm tired of being in such a position. Yeah, yeah, yeah, I need a job, but that's not the point. Sometimes I feel like it's better to just end it instead of dealing with this shit over and over and over again. My life is not on track at all, and I'm tired of exhausting all my efforts to make it so. I think that I'm only doing what I can right now, but really that's not enough.
Grrr. I'm sooo sick of feeling this way.