For a long time I wanted to call a helpline, just to talk to someone else. I'm not in any danger or anything, I just been feeling down about my entire life, and I don't know if I'm making the right decisions right now. Basically, I feel that my life has fallen apart, and I don't know if I'm picking up the pieces or exacerbating the problem.
Inevitably, I need treatment, but I'm in a position where I can't get it right now. I'm tired of being in such a position. Yeah, yeah, yeah, I need a job, but that's not the point. Sometimes I feel like it's better to just end it instead of dealing with this shit over and over and over again. My life is not on track at all, and I'm tired of exhausting all my efforts to make it so. I think that I'm only doing what I can right now, but really that's not enough.
Grrr. I'm sooo sick of feeling this way.