I've been worrying about a friend of mine for the past few months (actually, it's been longer than that), and he's not doin' too well. Honestly, I think he's getting worse. For my own sake, I'm not gonna contact him, or, at least, not for a while. He can reach me if he needs me, but I'm afraid that if I say something to him, I may get hurt. I'm too sensitive to handle rejection from someone I really care about right now (I worry a lot about how he feels about me 'cause I'm not sure how he feels...). I just want him to be happy.
A little over a week ago, I became so upset and contemplated self-injuring again. I'm feeling better now, but thinking about the negative stuff in my life and how it still affects me hurt quite a bit. I'm in the process of getting more sleep, so that should help my mood a lot. Also, I need more food. This lack of nutrition shit is not fun. I'm sure that when I get my job, things will be better. There's a lot that I have to do. There's a lot that I need to do :/. Oy.