Bah! I need to relax, but I'm so upset. My father came to our apartment bringing his crappy, negative attitude as usual. He's upset with my sisters for something that is totally not their fault, but they're not back from school yet, and he says that he doesn't feel like yelling at them right now, so he told me to tell them something when they come home. *rolls eyes*
Anyway, that's not what really upset me though...
"Hey, Steph? I have a huge favor to ask you. I have so many bills *sighs*. Well, you're not working so... Have you found a job yet? Nevermind, I won't ask you right now. Hey, do you know if your mom got her income tax check yet?"
Great. This mutha fucka wants some more money from me. Our rent is due today and he probably doesn't have it. I'm so sick of this shit! When I get a new job, I don't want to pay for their shit! I'm only 19 years old for fucks sakes!
You know what I'm just sooo offended by all of this. My parents used to beat the shit out of me, break down my self-esteem, and tried to discourage me from doing the things that I wanted to do. I wanted to go to college and live my dreams, but no, that was snatched from under me. Now they think that I'm just a lost soul who knows nothing about the "real world" and who is a failure in life.....
And they want me to handle their responsibilities.
When I get my new job, I will buy a car, save a good amount of money, and then I'm moving to Indiana. I don't want to stay here and help these selfish, incompetent, and hurtful losers. I going to become totally independent, move to IN, get treatment and become well, and then I'm going back to school. Point blank, damnit. I don't need any assholes to stop me!